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Quotes

Here are some quotes that i would like to share with you:

  • I’m a slow walker, but I never walk back.

  • If you need space join NASA baby.

  • I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken — and I’d rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

  • Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.

  • Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.

  • In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.

  • A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it.

  • Sometimes we put up walls, not to block people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

  • Don’t piss me off.. I’m running out of places to hide the bodies.

  • Before you judge someone walk a mile in there shoes so that you are a mile away and have there shoes.

  • This damn Prozac is turning me into a nice person…and they said there wouldn’t be any harmful side effects.

  • The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it.

  • If you haven’t got anything nice to say about anybody, come sit next to me.

  • Never interrupt your enemy when he is making a mistake.

  • Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go.

  • I have often regretted my speech, never my silence.

  • When you have to kill a man, it costs nothing to be polite.

  • What does not kill me makes me stronger.

  • Charm is a woman’s strength just as strength is a man’s charm.

  • In life, it’s not who you know that’s important, it’s how your wife found out.

  • Never allow someone to be your priority while you’re just their option.

  • Keep smiling; it makes people wonder what you’re up to.

  • If you love somebody, they shouldn’t make you cry, they should be worth crying over.

  • One day your prince will come, mine just took a wrong turn got lost and is too stubborn to ask for directions.

  • You never really learn to swear until you learn to drive.

  • Don’t take life so seriously… It’s not permanent!

  • The hardest thing in life to learn is which bridge to cross and which to burn.

  • There are people I would take a bullet for and people I would like to put a bullet in.

  • Friends help you move. Real friends help you move bodies.

  • I don’t suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it.

  • Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer.

  • There are easier things to do than understand women, like nailing water to a tree.

  • Live everyday as if it were your last…and someday, you’ll be right.

  • Follow your heart, but take your brain with you.

  • A woman is like fortune, neglect her today, don’t expect to regain her tomorrow.

  • Be patient enough to live one day at a time, letting yesterday go and leaving tomorrow until it arrives.

  • Whoever gossips to you will gossip about you.

  • The right half of the brain controls the left half of the body. This means that only the left-handed people are in their right mind. (I thinks its obvious that i am a left handed ;))

  • One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory.

  • Love may not make the world go round, but you must admit that it makes the ride worthwhile.

  • Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that are not meant to be.

  • Never stop playing the game, because the rules of attraction will end playing you.

  • After all it’s your life, why give the chance for others to rule it for you.

  • My memory’s not as sharp as it used to be. Also, my memory’s not as sharp as it used to be.

    

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When?

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When did we grow up?

Where did all this responsibility come from??

I remember the time when my biggest concern was the reaction of my parents when they see my grades or when my biggest decision was what cool outfit to wear..

Where did the time go when any problem would be solved just by letting my parents know about it?

Where did the time go when everyone was nice and friendly and you never expect or even think of the possibility of cheating or betrayal?

Where did the time go when a small toy would mean the world to you and the excitement wont let you sleep at night?

As we grow old we realize that the world is much tougher and much disappointing. We have to make our own decisions and live with them no matter what.. we realize that not all people are friendly and loyal.

Very few things make us happy for make us laugh until our tears drop?

When did we grow up? And does anyone know how to stop it?

 

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I went to the date zah2aneh o mish tay2a 7ali, but the minute I saw him I changed my mind.. he was the most good looking- stunning guy I have ever seen.. he was an orthopedic who lives in England, smart, funny, and talkative.. I felt that I can talk to him forever..

My friend called me at night and told me that he found me amazing.. that was the best night of my life.. we went out every single night for the next couple of weeks that he had left in Amman.. he called when he reached when he reached London and again when he reached him hometown.. we had nothing to talk about since we only spent 2 weeks together but we kept calling each other and talking about food 😉

The distance and the fact that his work couldn’t give him days off to come to Amman made it hard.. he was supposed to come back to Amman after 3 months but when he told me that he wont be able to make it I thought that was it, it will not last longer… but he made all the effort that it did.. he kept calling even when sometimes I didn’t want to pick up cause I didn’t know what we are going to talk about.. we have no people in common, we already talked about each others, our families and our dreams and we have nothing more to say.. as they say “Away from the eye, away from the heart”

And finally after 7 months he came to Amman.. the first day was weird, it was as if it was our first date but then we spent most of the time together, I introduced him to my colleagues and my friends, and he introduced me to his friends. He even visited our house and met my mother. He was different than any other guys I have ever met..

And then he had to leave again, and he did without saying a thing.. I mean I felt that he is not an emotional, he does not express his emotions easily, and when I asked him about it he said that actions speak out for words.. it was fine with me as I was not an emotional person as well and I didn’t emotional guys as well..

But it was harder than I thought.. you cant understand the person in front of you if you do not know him that long.. especially if he knows how to hide his feelings.. but still I liked him a lot I went along with it..

Another 7 months passed before he was able to make it to Amman, I thought this time we needed to talk about us, our feelings, and our relationship. I was not in love with him but I liked him a lot and seeing him every 7 months for a year and half without knowing where this is going is driving me crazy..

And then came the surprise.. he called saying he cant make it.. he is waiting for the hospital to call him for his next job offer and he to be available otherwise he wont have a job..

I felt so disappointed.. his birthday was on the day of his arrival, I bought him so many gifts 3 months in advance as I was very excited but I tried to understand as it was a life decision and his career depended on it..    

And then came the shock, he sent me a message saying that he got bored waiting.. (what do you expect after that? that he is going to come to Amman?! Think again)  He is going to Tunis for a week with his parents to attend his cousin’s wedding!!!

Tunis!!! For a week!! What about me??!! The person who has been waiting for him for the last 7 months??!! I went crazy.. I kept thinking that maybe he wanted to surprise me and that he will come to Amman even if for a couple of days..

We he sure surprised me.. and did not come..

That made me think that maybe this is a message from him that he wants out.. didn’t he say that actions speak out for words?!!

I felt sad for a couple of days, cried of course alone in the bathroom, but then told my self shit happens and life goes on.. and then he sent me a message from Tunis telling me about his trip and asking about me!!!! Seriously??!!!

I was very brief and cold in my reply.. he said nothing..

And then he sent me another message when he went back to England asking if I was ok as I was treating him differently.. as if he did not know.. then he replied by saying that he knows why I am angry and that I shouldn’t be and that he will make it up to me.. MAKE IT UP TO ME!!!!! Its not that he forgot to call or send me a gift on my birthday, he chose to go somewhere else instead of coming to see me after 7 months of waiting and God knows when he will be able to take another vacation.. I doubt anytime before next year..

When I told him that I am getting different messages from him as I thought that he broke up with me and now he is talking to me, he went crazy and said that I misunderstood..

Its not something he can fix, he wither feels it or he doesn’t.. if he did not feel that he wanted to come and see me even if for a couple of days then the relationship is wrong..

I talked to my close friends thinking maybe they will calm me down and put some sense into me.. but instead they went crazy.. I thought ok maybe I should ask someone older with more experience, I talked to my aunt who is closer to me than my mom, she went crazy as well.. she said the least he could have done was pick up the phone and explain not just send stupid messages, but devised me to wait and see what will he do next..

A week after waiting I sent him a message breaking up with him and wishing him all the best in his life.. he replied by saying “Fair enough, I can see where you are coming from”… Can he?!

Was I wrong? Did I make a wrong decision??!! Ill never know..

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I hate going on a blind date, I really do.. Why? Because I had my shares of blind dates and they were all, without any exceptions, disappointing. I mean when a friend or someone close to you set you up with some one you would think that its ok since they know you enough to know who to hook you up with.. WRONG!!!

They were either too short (as I am 177) , too fat, too stupid, or from a totally different background..

I was going out with my friends for dinner when one of them called and said “they told me not to tell you but I thought I you have to know, they are going to introduce you to a guy today, but please please do not tell them I told you as they might kill me”.. Of course I went crazy but did not say anything.. I think it is my right to know..

I tried to act normal but since we have known each other for 20 years they knew that I knew.. they went crazy on me saying ma bi3jibni il 3aba and that I don’t even give them the chance to introduce me to guys.. so I went along..

I accepted to go out with that guy who turned out to be related to my X.. we talked on the phone for a couple of times and then he disappeared on me.. to tell you the truth I felt relieved.. I felt that I was pushing my self and maybe he felt it too…  

Last year one of my close friends called me saying that she has2 new guys for me.. I was what the hell!!! The first is a very handsome doctor, who is related to her relative, and the second is a friend of a friend that saw my picture on hi5 or something and was interested..

I started to make excuses and then of course had to accept after she went crazy. I told her that I will go out with the first as I hate the internet make ups..

I went out with my friend, her relative and they guy.. he was not bad, a dentist who lives in Canada and seemed to be a nice guy.. he was traveling the next day so he took my email address and promised to email me.. and he did the minute he reached Canada.. he said how much he had fun the other day and that he would like to know me more.. I replied back and then he disappeared on me…

I think all that was a reason for me to meet the third guy.. my friend called again and told me “come on, il talteh nabteh, you have nothing to loose, just meet him once” and I did.. and I am glad that I did..

To be continued…

 

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